I've taken a bit of a break from blogging (and everything else) over the holidays and tried to concentrate on relaxing and spending time with my family. We were off from work for almost two weeks; we did some visiting; we had pajama days; we ate potato chips and watched movies in bed; we went to the Ontario Science Centre; we enjoyed fires in the fireplace while drinking egg nog and listening to Christmas music.
I let go.
And I needed it. I was dangerously stressed before the holidays. You might say I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Everything was weighing on me - work, Little Boo's ADHD diagnosis & ongoing behaviour concerns, the pressures of keeping the house running, blogging commitments I had made, the need to prep for the holidays. I had too much. So, I took care of all commitments I had made to friends, family, PR firms, etc. And then I let things just flow. And I did some thinking.
I'm not one for New Year's Resolutions, but I have made a few decisions to help me find some balance and sanity in 2012.
For one, I am for real this time giving up on my Pampered Chef business. I have never been able to give it the time it needed to really succeed. And it became just one more thing to take me away from my family on the weekends. Gone.
Secondly, I am going to stop complaining about my work and actually do something about making a change. I have applied to some opportunities, but haven't put a big enough effort in. My ideal situation would be to work from home - writing, editing, community management, or something in that range. (Anyone hiring?) I need to ditch my commute and be able to focus more on Little Boo and what he needs from me. If that means a pay cut, we'll figure out how to deal with it.
Finally, I have realised that I have to stop hoping my family can read my mind. I need more help around here than I am getting. Really simple things like putting the toilet lid down so the cat doesn't play in the water and then track muddy paws all over the house. (Guess who gets to clean up?) I need to be open and clear about this, without bitching or blowing my lid when it happens AGAIN. I think we might try a family meeting later this month, to talk about expectations, from all of us, and how we can work together to keep the house running happily. (Anyone have any experience with that?)
So, maybe these count as resolutions, but I don't think of them that way. The timing is coincidental simply because this is when I had the time to stop and be quiet and think. Now I have some decisions and goals, and I'll do my best to end 2012 in a much better place than I did 2011.
Happy New Year! Happy New Beginnings!